Saturday, February 17, 2007

Big Calm

It's been an odd week. You know what, scratch that. It hasn't been odd. It's been a pretty normal week in most respects except for the fact that I had a couple of days off. The Ash and I are both low on sleep due to a slowpoke tooth that's taking its sweet time emerging in little GooGoo's gumline. I think even old Wolverine would cry if those claws of his popped out slowly and one at a time. But they don't, so he doesn't.

But really, none of those things are all that unusual. No, I think it's me. I'm feeling...I don't know exactly, but something's different. Some internal setting seems to have switched gears. It's not bad or good, it just is. It's like everything is kind of normal right now, and at this particular point in life, that's what's odd. So much has changed in our lives over the past year or two, and at such a pace, with one change paving the way to yet another and another, rapid mutation of life kind of became the order of the day. I discovered a whole new part of my family. We've navigated our way through our first year of parenthood. Ashley started her own business. I figured out something I want to do, really do with my life. I applied for and was accepted into grad school. I found my way back to a type of faith that actually makes sense to me, and actually supports and inspires and doesn't disillusion or disgust me. We went through the insanity of selling our house in the 'burbs and moving to a new place. It's just like one thing fed into the next and into the next and into the next, and now? Well now things are actually kind of levelling out. We're all moved into the new place, my first semester has started, Henry's healthy and growing every day, and for now at least, we seem to have at least a handle on this whole parenting's like our own personal rhythm section finally locked into a beat that we can groove to. For a while.

I don't maintain any illusions that this state of relative order is anything permanent. Things simply don't work that way. Hell, if there's anything I've learned from reading all the parent blogs that I frequent, it's that parenting itself is an ever-evolving challenge. As I type this, life may be gearing up its next curveball, just waiting for the nod to let it fly. But these in-between times, the periods between the major upheavals, they're just as valuable and inevitable as the changes that preceded them, and I'm thankful to have this one.


Carol said...

Ahhhhh! Enjoy this peaceful time as you know it may be the last one for a while. Congrats on returning to school. I think that is a difficult transition in and of itself. Congrats to your wife on her new business also. Sounds like you are getting it!

Whit said...

Yeah, curveballs are winding up. Just keep your bat at the ready and it will be all good.